By the Grace of God

This is a little out of my comfort zone, but I guess that's where God likes me. That's where He likes all of us. Vulnerable and broken of our ways, with only Him left to lean on.

In June of 2011 I went to Haiti. While that was a life-changing experience in and of itself, it had no competition against what meeting my 2 'future' siblings would do to me.

For the better part of my life our family has been trying to adopt. First locally, then we moved on to internationally. It wasn't that big of a deal to me, at first. We'd been trying and anything but succeeding for a while and this was just another try. Well, that's what we thought. We thought we weren't succeeding, that's what it felt like.

But then we were thrown into 2 little lives, that would change ours. Forever.

 When I met them, I fell in love completely. So it's no wonder why my mom did also. 

But as time went on, more and more complications kept coming up with the adoption. It became more of a heartache than a blessing, more hurtful than joyful, and we were all worn out. But my mom kept fighting. She hasn't given up, even to this very day. And I respect her so much for that. It's taken so much for her to keep going. 

Even though I haven't told her yet, she's set an amazing example of endurance for all of her kids. So, when we finally succeed, which I have faith that we will, and the Lord decides to bring those kids into our home, they're going to see that their mama never gave up. 

Although I didn't tell many people this, I did give up. In my pure selfishness I gave up. I said "there's too much back and forth, I can't deal with this anymore." or  "I'm too young to be worried about this, I don't want to know anything else. If it happens, it happens, until then don't tell me about it." 

It hurts me to write those words. The fact that I could have so much selfishness in my heart makes me sick. But God knew where I was at. And he let me be there. He let me wallow in self pity and selfishness.

Until today.

Today He woke me up, smacked me around a little and then graciously showed me a way that I could help out.

He showed me my selfishness of letting my mom carry the burden of raising money, of being here and not there with them, of being strong emotionally. That's not how it's supposed to be. Galatians 6:2 says "Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ."

Sometimes I forget, in all the 'mom' stuff, that my mom is still my fellow sister in Christ. Or however that works. We're still bound in Christ, and I can't deny that.

So how can I help her? How can I make this a little bit easier? I'm not really sure.

But I'll start by this: If you're feeling led to help out financially, please, please PLEASE do.

It's really the only thing left standing in our way. And we now have a deadline. SO if you know anyone who is looking for a way to help out, or you yourself are feeling lead to help PLEASE make it happen. My mom has been trying and we haven't been getting too much response. Not to say we haven't been blessed through the whole journey by so many, and we are so grateful for that. And we still need your help!







So this is my way of trying to branch out to a new group of people. I know you may not have extra money laying around (I mean who does in this economy? Not most people) BUT there are some that do. Or that are willing to sacrifice to help out. So maybe it's not you, but I'm sure you know someone. So please get the word out there. Talk to your friends about it, your friends parents, everyone. Please help us bring these sweet babies home.

Thank you.

xKassiex