I was talking with a good friend that the Lord has blessed me with in this new season of my life, and a topic came up that has always been a struggle for both of us. Trust.
Trusting anyone really, with information, with stories you don't want to be repeated...but most importantly, trusting in the One that gives us our every breath.
Trust can be really easy when everything is going well. When money is stable, when your grades are good, when your family is happy with you..
but what about when all that fails?
When it feels like no one is on your side?That's when it's the hardest.
When you have to fall to your knees and give everything you hold to the Lord and fully trust.
I don't know about you, but that's not my first instinct. The first thing I want to do when everything goes down is lock myself away and have a pity party.
Party of one. No one else. You want to help me get out of my funk? Sorry, you weren't invited and I would rather be miserable alone.
THIS is where we go wrong. When God places people in our lives to help us and do life with us, and we shut them out because we're too grumpy to deal with our heart.
When we aren't trusting in the Lord, we don't usually trust anyone, we tend to turn into ourselves and only trust what comes from us. Which is really pointless, because, if we're honest, we don't really even trust ourselves to remember to turn the stove off before we leave the house, not to mention trusting ourselves to fix our own life. We just turn into selfish, self-seeking, miserable people.
In our own selfishness and pity we shut those out that love us the most, and it hurts.
But that's the amazing thing about our God, no matter how many times we fail and put our selfishness above all else, He still loves us and He still sent his Son to die for us-that's something that will never change. Even when everything in this world is changing and unreliable, HE is constant and HE is unfailing
"The Lord himself goes with you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8
It can be a constant battle for some. But we do have hope in ONE thing. The Lord is not finished with us yet.
Paul writes in Philippians 1 that "..I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
We serve a loving and gracious God that knows our every thought and every plan for our future. And we can have hope in that, that can be found NOWHERE else. Not in man, not in security, not in possessions.
As easy as it is to turn inward and run to our favorite TV show or book to escape, that's only a temporary fix that will never satisfy our need for our Savior.
"Rid me of myself, I belong to you. Lead me to the cross."
I don't know about you, but when I'm trusting fully in the One who gave me life, I am a much happier person all around.
So this is my prayer for myself, and for whoever reads this and can relate, that the Lord would be the first place we run when things aren't really going our way. That He would be our comfort and that, in that, we would be able to love those around us and invite them into our hearts, working things out together, in love.
xKassiex
